Wednesday 11 April 2012

Drifting

My present lifestyle of ample free time, music, sailing, fishing and socialising may seem enviable to some, but, although wonderful, it still leaves me unfulfilled.

My spare time, and that's a considerable chunk of any given week, is spent reading, voraciously and insatiably, as if escaping into the realms of fiction will tide me over until such time I can reclaim the life I long for.

When socialising with friends, something I treasure, I still feel a certain kind of loneliness. Having no real  partner leaves me with no fundamental alliance. Without a loving bond I feel like an astronaut barely tethered to his craft, liable to at any moment drift off into the limitless universe.

It is indeed good fortune to have good friends, likewise it is also - in my case - a misfortune to not have a "special" friend.

Presently, the women I'm interested in are not available and the women interested in me are not what I'm interested in.  This is a paradox, an emotional conundrum that needs addressing as soon as possible, if not sooner.

Oh yes, I can almost hear you say that matters of the heart seldom go to plan or schedule.  I accept that, with reticence, but mere acceptance does not alleviate the pangs of solitude.

You see, it is only when I'm in love that I allow life's ordinary tribulations to sink into insignificance - such as the ordinary tribulation of temporary loneliness.

One consolation though, is that I now have more time to write songs and the planned novel, and also to express myself in this very public but personal diary.

:)

12 comments:

  1. I love your lifestyle Joe, but then again, maybe I'm only looking at the good bits. As I keep saying, i'm sure the right girl will come along soon.

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    1. It is a fun lifestyle, I should be more greateful -its just when the fun ends and it's time to go home that I don't like. Thanks Dicky :)

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  2. Yes...free time is one thing I relish...but the downside of it can be lack of capital to do many things...a conundrum in itself...
    brother i have been through that other conundrum of feeling strongly for someone caught up with another a few times...it can feel lonely..
    at least know that you have some close online people who have your back and who dig your work! :)

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    1. True with me also Dan, lack of funds to cover all the idle time. Thanks Dan, I sincerely appreciate and value your support and friendship :)

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  3. A post I could have written myself, Joe, as it is so perfectly matched to my own sentiments.

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    1. I'm sorry if you are in a similar situation. It is only a matter of time, I think, before we both resolve the issue A very big hug to you, MC x

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  4. You know what I don't like about being single? Everybody feels like they need to set me up with someone, and they always get it completely WRONG!
    I'm not even looking for someone, so WHY would they want to set me up? WHY?

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    1. Nessa, I don't like that either, not one bit,also happens to me and puts me off even before I meet the person.

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  5. Ahhhh Joe, I feel for you. It really sucks right? To know that there's a time and season for everything but inside you want it now.

    But wait we must. I have been feeling that way for the past three years. But well ... it looks like Fate has smiled upon me recently. We shall see, too early to tell if it's luck or misfortune. Hahaha.

    As always, I wish you well in your little corner of the world. Enjoy fishing, and sailing. One day, I'll do both too =)

    Kane

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    1. Kane, thank you so much for your kind words. I hope Fate delivers what you seek - fingers crossed here - Good luck mate. If you're ever in this part of the world I'll provide all the fishing and sailing you need :)

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  6. Reading the above comments I see comments I could have written, things I think and ideas I have. I hate the fact that people look at you differently as a single...like theres something wrong with you that needs fixing by matching you to some sad loser they know...
    I'm not different, not weird, strange or so labored with bad habits that I'm beyond loving...I'm just single cause I haven't found a life partner worth putting up with...

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    1. Hi Tempo, I fully agree with you -I'd rather stay single than be with the wrong person. I don't feel as if I'm treated differently, but I guess it is a possibility :)

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